So another reason for me wanting to lose weight is obviously my wedding day. Everyone says it's the most important day in a girls life, and I wouldn't say it's THE most important, but to me it's one of them.
I am going to look back and remember this day for the rest of my life, I want to be able to look back and see how beautiful I looked, and feel proud and happy. Being a photographer I know I'm going to have lots of photos taken and have them around the house, therefore I want to be able to look at them and smile, not cringe because I was so over weight.
I know my fiance loves me, but it's gotten to the point where I feel like I embarrass him, and myself. Whenever we go out in public I see other skinnier beautiful women, and I know he wishes I looked more like them. Relationships aren't all about looks, but it does count to some degree. Another reason why I'm doing this is to improve my relationship. Most relationships do have serious problems because one or both of the people involved forget about looking after themselves and just deal with how the other person looks. I want to know that I'm going to be attractive to my fiance each and every day, because yeah, I don't want him to stray to something that is skinnier and more attractive because he's sick of waiting for me to change.
I don't want to be the girl with the awesome personality and cute face, I want to be the girl with the whole package.
I'm very glad I have made this blog, it's a way for me to vent and write down my feelings. It's a way for me to look back and see how unhappy I currently am. Where I started and where I'm going.
My friend Jude just said "Nothing tastes as good as feeling thin feels." so true.
I can do it.
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