I AM NOT DEAD

Just clearing that up :)

So I'm in Perth! It's been a very busy couple of weeks, and I have been without the net for awhile.

So what's the progress? I think I've lost about 6-7kgs in total so far and have lost about 15-18cms off my waist. If that's not something to be proud of then I need a slap in the face!!

My fitness level is very low atm, and as I'm on holidays for awhile I'm not going to the gym just as yet. However the surrounding streets of my new home and more than enough of a workout for me! Up and down and up and down each hill. Really awesome especially if there is a wind trying to push me back down the hill while I'm trying to walk up it. Trying to build up my leg muscles as they seem to be the first things going atm when I workout, once I've got them down packed then I'll move onto something else.

Bought myself these lovely babies

I gotta say, they are the most comfortable shoe I've ever worn in my life!!

Athlete's foot made sure they checked everything over with my feet before recommending 3 different type shoes, and suggested putting in a better arch support for my plantar fasciitis issues.

Also purchased an iPod shuffle so I don't have a huge bulky thing weighing down my shorts when I go for a walk. Speaking of exercise clothing, it seems to be the only thing I can wear in Perth. Anything else makes me sweat so much or die from heat exhaustion!

Note to self - need thinner summer clothes!

My eating has been pretty good, I haven't been depriving myself if I come overcome a craving. However I went to the supermarket today to purchase naughty food and walked out with blueberries and figs! Fresh fruit shits on chocolate and junk :)

more motivation

motivation

I am meant to be healthy.

Second weigh day

So I weighed myself this morning, I've lost another kilo, not as good as I'd hoped, but then again I haven't been working out as much.

I really need to work on my determination, because this morning when my alarm went off, I went back to sleep. I feel very guilty and am mad at myself, but by the time I woke up later in the morning it was way too hot to go out for a walk.

I know this is a long term battle, I don't want to be like The Biggest Loser and force myself to work out for 6 hours a day to lose my weight in a couple of months. Mainly because you can put it back on (and more) as you haven't done it slowly and totally turned your life around.

I want this to be a life change, not just a weight loss. I want to kick my sugar addiction and transform my life!!! I want to eat healthy fresh meals every day, and when I'm put in a situation to eat something not so healthy, not panic and think about instant weight gain, but to think about how awesome it's going to be to work it off at the gym.

I've been following this wonderful girls blog, and she is really helping me in accepting myself and also in how to dress for my shape and size. http://fullerfigurefullerbust.wordpress.com/

She just posted a photo of her friend on FB saying about how she thinks this is the perfect size for a woman, and I have to agree!

http://www.hughesmodels.co.uk/14+DIVISION/LauraGoodwin.html

I am looking forward to looking like this by winter!

And look like this by December 2012, a size 12, ready for my bikini photo!

http://www.hughesmodels.co.uk/10+DIVISION/DeborahAnnGaetano.html

As my fiance says I should look forward to being a "sex kitten" rather than when I say "I can't wait to be beautiful", because you know what? I already am beautiful :)

things are moving along

Went to Kmart today and bought an entire week's worth of clothing for gym wear, that way I won't be washing every couple of days for new gym clothes. Only spent $70 :)

This is on my fridge

So that every time I go to open it, I make the right choices. Not that I have junk food in my fridge, but I'm sure I could make something naughty from the things in my cupboard. I also have a small note in my wallet saying "DONT GET FAT" which helps too!

This is my goal body weight and look. Beyonce and I have a similar body shape, so it's a pretty realistic goal to have. I can't wait :)

feeling determined

So I started today with an awesome workout, I power walked 4.8kms and it only took me 45mins! New record as last time I did it, it took about 1 hour. Pretty happy about that however, when I got home I think I suffered some heat exhaustion and possibly pushed myself too hard. I had to lay down on the couch for close to 2 hours before I felt ok again to get up. Even now I still have a headache!

So something I've learnt - don't push yourself beyond your limits and don't go walking when it's already 32 degrees outside at 7:30am.

My new sports bra, I have to say is amazing. It honestly felt like I had no weight on my chest at all! This was amazing and so comfortable. Definitely a great purchase!

It's really strange how in such a short space of time, the difference I'm feeling already. I'm not bloated after meals, I feel full but not like I've eaten too much. I don't get sleepy after meals anymore, and I seem to be able to stay awake longer. Just my health in general has improved so much, by just eating healthy and doing some exercise. I really look forward to being so fit, I really really do.

This was my breakfast this morning after my walk

The days that I work nights I try and cook myself an egg meal for breakfast, to really pump myself with protein. I'm really into adding baby spinach and cherry tomatoes also. Bought fresh from local growers at the Gepps Cross markets on Sunday.

I'm having a very bipolar feeling at the moment. Sometimes I have good moments but just one small thing needs to happen and it turns into a bad moment. Like today for example, I was on a huge high from exercise and feeling determined and I decided to watch a movie before work. I read a very small description of the movie "An Education" not really knowing what it was about. By the end of the movie I was crying heavily and back to square one with missing my fiance. I guess it's better that it's coming in waves now, rather than just a constant sadness, but still. I hate feeling like this, it's like I'm single again, like he's left me here in Adelaide and taken off to another state. Which he basically has, except we're not broken up. I need to repeat this to myself over and over and over and over again, cos I'm going fucking insane. We both know the sooner I go over there the better, for both of our sanity's.

So right now I'm going to curl up on the couch and read the latest Australian Women's Health magazine and think about my gym ball workout tomorrow morning.

Gym things!

So a few things I've ordered online came today, for the gym!!

I bought myself this awesome Panache Bra :) It does state that it reduces movement by 83% but I still jiggle. I guess them's the breaks when you have a big bust! It's super comfy and has a clip at the back to turn into a razor back bra. Very happy with this purchase, and I down-sided in the cup size so it will last me quite awhile before I lose too much weight. Although in saying that when I was a size 8-10 in year 8 I still had a large bust!

My other purchase was this Gym bag! It's a nice large bag made with sturdy materials. I didn't want to spend too much, as I know you can spend hundreds on a gym bag. I like how the shoes are separated from the rest of your clothing, and you can put wet things in there as well. The only thing I don't like is there are no internal pockets, so I'm probably going to have to invest in a small bag to put inside for toiletries, ipod etc.

Anyway YAY, I'm going to test out my new bra tomorrow morning on my walk, so I'll report back with how it goes :)

Can I go to the gym NOW and not in a few weeks when I get to Perth? No? Ok I wait :)